POEM..POEM...POEM... I'M CRAZZY..... XD

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As the world was about to going down
You caught a bow like a clown
shake-body and sweaty for short
U said, "this gonna be my last,"
Then you dropped it back with a still shake-body
you were ready to fly, you grew your smile...
You flew so high, till your tears were dry
you never wonder why you were fade for their lies
you sacrificed your life
just to covered their lies

(HAVEN'T FOUND IDEA FOR THIS POEM YET)

i lost in the dark
but I would never be worry
with you stood beside me
as a light,
You didn't try to pull me up
but you taught me to survive
So I could seek my own way
You never pushed me to do this and that
What should i do and what's good for me
You let me free to do anything
so i'll try to do the same,
I won't pull you up when you down
it's caused i'm afraid,
that i'll bring u down again...

***
Those poems, i'd like to give it to my bestest friend, which I haven't found them yet.. :'(
***
Enough for the sad times, now here I go mocking those who bring me down..!! >:D
I don't have to mention their Fu'King name, I just wish that those who had suck my life, get karma.... wahahahah...hahah.....
***
That's it for the revenge,
now... My friend, left me here, alone. Damn, see... I told 'ya, I haven't get a friend...
Sh*t...

'It's seems that's all I can do'

okey, now. i'm sit here again, facing my blog, lovely blog, ready to hear my story today. scroll down babe...

fuh.... pulang pagi... senangnya... .
tapi sepertinya aku kehilangan kemampuan berbahasa Jawaku. kemaren, w duduk di ankot, penumpang termuda. hyahahah.... kalo ditiliki dari penampilan en cara ngobrolnya, dengan mudah dapat disimpulkan bahwa ibu-ibu yang lage gosip di depan gua, adalah .. seorang pedagang. pasar. seperti biasa, gua dengan indah dan santainya nguping. gila... gua biasanya bisa ngerti dikit-dikit pembicaraan kek geto. tapi, kemaren, there's something wrong. damn... tu ibu-ibu ngomongin apaan. gua histeris sendiri dalem ati... oh no.... kemempuan berbahasa Jawaku ilang.... pasti ni gara-gara gua ngerjain PR Fisika, Matematika, ma Kimia, yang masya Allah bejibun banget... (nyambung??)

hmm..... ganti topik ah, itu kemaren, saat gua ga ada duit buat ngenet. sekarang masalah yang lagi anget-anget tai kucingnya. masalah temend ples sahabat gua.
kita ganti nama si cowok dengan = si A
sedang cewek, dengan = si B
Si A, putuz ma si B. katanya, gara-gara ga direstui ma ortu si B. w nyaranin ma si A, wat backstreet z.. v Si A kagak mao, dia bilang, jarak jadi penghambatnya, padahal jaraknya gak jaoh-jaoh amat, masih jaohan dari Padang-Bandung (ea ealah..), gitu deh...
w bilang lagi,,, (biar enak, kita lead dari kaca drama)
Jessica Simpson (w): kalo lo masih cinta, jarak ga bakal jadi penghalang.

Si A : tapi w udah bener kagak bisa ngelakuin hubungan ini lagi...

JS : np?

Si A: ya pokoknya kagak bisa,,, masi bnyk mslh yang harus w slesein dulu...(dia pake tanda pentung *seru* )

JS: (ngedumel) ea tapi, masalah ni uda ada solusinya, apa slhnya di selesein duluan..skrg lu tu masih sayang ga ama dia (mncoba ttp sabar, dengan tidak memberi tanda seru)

Si A : ya gua masih sayang, tapi gua kagak mo pcrn dulu ah...."

JS : (kagak nyambung de ni orang, bingung) ya lo gitu lu kagak bener-bener sayang ma dy. padahal dy uda sayang banget ma lo. tega lo ah.

Si A : oke... kalo gitu, gua buka rahasia gua... sebenernya uda ada yang nempatin ati gua. wanita laen.

JS : (sudah kuduga) cp?

Si A : lu

JS : Oh, maap, w kaga kaget, w juga uda puna cowok... (dalem ati, "anjrit ni anak sok cakep banget..!!!)

Si A : oh... ya udah. kalo gitu, w mw ngejomblo ajah.... v lu cariin w cewek each...

uargh.....nyampe situ naik banget darah gua. Anjrit banget c tu cowok. Sok Cakep, jijik deh...
Hari Minggu lead aza lo.. 3 cewe, dg watak yang beda-beda. abis lo!!

ganti channel lagi. gua dapet temen baru.... v dy mo pigi jaoh..... huuu....w kagak rela rasannya....so saad.........]

those are my story. I wish I could have another, brighter story....
c 'ya.......

PS: almost finished my story...

HOw to make a blog, (I guess)

well, ek cuma pengen ngobrol, ada yang pengen bikin blog ea... um... ek juga pertama bikin lupa alamatna dimana... tapi yang jelas kalo uda baca ini posting, uda masuk ke sini, di pojok kanan atas ntu (PKS) ada tulisan 'buat blog' ato 'Sign Up' ato apalah yang intinya daptar (ketauan sundanya de...). tinggal di klik, ikutin azza perintah-perintahnya, wokeh kan.
trus caranya ngepost. tar kalo uda bikin, lu pigi ke dashboard, teyus klik "new post" and then u can start telling the blog what u wanna say bout ue life.

ummm.... kalo dengan penjelasan yang gajebo di atas belon pada mudheng (maklum, hanya orang-orang jenius yang bisa memahaminya....wgwgwgwg) coba azwa datengin sini

Gaara

Gaara had initially tried to be friendly towards others despite their fear of him. Yashamaru's actions and words changed him. Realizing that nobody loved him, Gaara used his sand to create the kanji on his forehead ("Love") as a symbol of a "demon loving only himself". He became emotionally withdrawn, all but silent, and consumed with a bitter loathing for everyone but himself. He learned to find pleasure and eventually a reason to live in annihilating the numerous assassins sent to kill him ? and by extension, anyone who threatened his existence. Gaara's insomnia, forced upon him by the fear that the demon inside him would eat away at his personality if he were to fall asleep, only furthered his instability and desire to kill. In time, Gaara's father came to appreciate Gaara and the uses he could serve, and canceled all assassination orders in the hopes that Gaara would become an effective tool for Sunagakure. For his first assignment as the village's weapon, Gaara is entered into the Chunin Exams taking place in Hidden Leaf Village to play a key role in the village's eventual invasion. While he enjoys the opportunity to kill others for much of the exam's early stages, he is eventually pitted against Rock Lee during the preliminaries. With his strength and speed, Lee is able to overcome many of Gaara's defenses, becoming the first person to ever hit Gaara. While Lee is able to deliver a number of ordinarily debilitating blows, Gaara's sand allows him survive each attack and eventually gain the upperhand on Lee. While the match is stopped before further harm can come to Lee, their match allows Gaara a change in ideals; rather than determine his own existence by killing anyone he meets, Gaara finds a drive to kill those strong enough to defeat him, and begins to long to find a formidable opponent. Gaara's wishes are soon realized and he is matched against Sasuke Uchiha during the exam's finals. With his Chidori, Sasuke is able to badly injure Gaara near his shoulder, so much so that Gaara is unable to participate in Hidden Leaf Village's invasion as planned. Despite this setback, Gaara's wound magnifies his desire to kill Sasuke and the two soon resume their battle. With Gaara's encouragement Sasuke is able to give additional injuries to Gaara, though his rapidly progressing Shukaku transformation leaves him unfazed by the attacks. When Sasuke is no longer able to battle and Gaara goes in for the kill, Naruto Uzumaki arrives to save him. With the desire to save his friends from Gaara, Naruto meets him in battle and is eventually able to defeat him despite being in full Shukaku form. Realizing that Naruto's strength stems from his desire to protect others, Gaara abandons his prior ideals and decides to acquire strength by caring for others. Gaara's new disposition is first seen when he comes to Rock Lee's aid during the Sasuke Retrieval arc. Upon seeing that the injuries Lee received during their last battle have yet to fully heal, Gaara repeatedly stops him from fighting, concerned that Lee will only harm himself further. These new ideals are seen again during the anime's filler arcs, where Gaara acquires a student named Matsuri. As the two begin training, Gaara worries that all of the potential training weapons might cause Matsuri injury, so he has her train with the least harmful weapon present. When she is later kidnapped, Gaara and his siblings go out to rescue her, and with the help of the Hidden Leaf Village ninjas they succeed in their task. Over the timeskip, Gaara's personality changes a great deal. While in the past he was fairly hostile to his siblings (to a point which they were both scared of him), he has since come to hold them in a higher regard, and talks to Kankuro about his problems and dreams. As a result of becoming the Fifth Kazekage, Gaara now acts as the villager's source of protection and values their lives over his own. The villagers, in turn, have also begun to hold Gaara in a more admirable regard, especially amongst the younger females of the village. However, much of the Elder population, especially with the higher ranks, still holds malice towards him and call the younger generation fools for believing in him.
http://www.narutocentral.com/?p=info/bios/g

Gaara,,,,
I luph yuuu...

meud ciAAAAAAAnk,,,,,,,,,,,,,

lankah kaki ke dalam warnet, pilih-pilih tempat yang enak, oh, bukan, lebih tepatnya, dipilihin ama mbak-mbaknya.
siap-siap.... doa dulu sebelum buka internet, semoga ga ketemu yang gituan, okeh.... tangan udah siku-siku, jari udah lemes,
OOOOOOOOOOHHHHHH........ blog ku,,,, aku rindu padamu,
dari kemaren tu sebenernya uda gatel banget pengen buka blog cayank, sayang, niat tulus itu kehalang ujan. yeah... ujan tiap sore di tempat gua. nyebelin, acara semuanya pada berantakan. gila, baru turun dari angkot uda dicegat ujan gede banget.

jadi ceritanya, disekolah tu uda mendung, gua uda ada rencana mo les, tapi makan siang dulu di kantin. berhubung uda mendung, batal dah, niat yang pertama. nyampe terminal, ujan deres banget. padahal untuk mencapai rumah perlu jasa ojek tercinta. (eh, tapi gua masih dendam ma ojek-ojek situ, dikacangin gua...GILA). jadi deh, gua berhenti dulu di depan indomaret, kagak ada temen, kagak bawa hape pulak. waddu.... di situ, akhirnya gua merenung. gua inget-inget lagi kejadian ape yang menyenangkan saat ujan. gua inget, dulu gua ujan-ujanan lewat sini ama temen gua. hanya demi menjalankan perintah bU Guru, belanja.... fuh... watta nice day...

khayalan gua terpotong, tiba-tiba aja tukang KFC keliling ma roti Bakar markir dagangannya di depan mata. karna kagak ada lagi tempat untuk gua memfokuskan mata, akhirnya gua liat dengan saksama tu 2 orang pedagang. dalam hati gua berkata, "Kayanya ribet amet mo jualan"
ia... ujan-ujan gini, mereka harus pake pelindung tentunya. terutama barang dagangannya. Penjual Roti bakar masih pake terpal tradisional, lebih ribet daripada tukang KFC keliling. dia masih harus masang-masangin bambu yang satu dengan bambu yang lain. pake tali rafia. gua mikir lagi, "Kalo gini mah, keburu ujannya selese..."
sedang penjual keliling satunya, udah pake besi. jadi, ga perlu masang-masangin bambu yang satu dengan bambu yang lain pake tali rafia.
10 menit berlalu, belum ada tanda-tanda ujan mo berhenti. sedang perut gua udah konser duluan. akhirnya, gua ajak ngobrol deh tukang parkir setempat. untungnya gua ma dia udah akrab. bagaikan kaos kaki ma sepatu (baca: Bau). kita ngobrol di deket tukan jualan aksesoris, gua juga udah akrab ma dia, malah akrab duluan. yah... jadi inget lagi awal perkenalan gua ma tu tukang aksesori. kapan-kapan aja de gua ceritain yak. malang tak dapat diraih, untung tak dapat ditolak, (bener ga si pepatahnya??) perut gua tak bisa dihindari konsernya, makin rame. mana duit pas-pasan lagi. untungnya ujan uda mulai berhenti jadi grimis. gua ditawarin ojek ma tukang parkir.
nyampe rumah, satu hal yang gua lakukan. buka pintu. (ea ealah..) ia, gua lupa bayar tu tukang ojek. pantes aja waktu gua keluar lagi tu tukang ojek uda gemeter kagak karuan.... gyakakakakak.... dendam gua terbalaskan....(kesian juga si tapi...)

waktu uda nunjukin pukul setengah 4 waktu setempat. tadinya gua mo les matematika, jam stengah 3. apa daya, ujan.
akhirnya dengan ikhlas ga baca-baca sendiri tu buku. sial... kagak ada yang masuk satupun. akhirnya lagi (ni sebenernya akhirnya kapan sie??)gua keluar beriringnan dengan gerimis yang mulai mereda. Sayang emang, nyampe bawah, (rumah gua di dataran agak tinggi, jadi kalo rumah gua kebanjiran sematakaki aja... yang laen udaa kelelep) UJAN.
sial, sial, sial, demi matematika, gua balapan dengan ujan. untungnya ampe sana guru masih mao nerima gua .dan sedikit demi sedikit pun tulisan-tulisan di buku kebaca ma otak gua yang super jenius, jika berhadapan dengan makanan.
demikianlah kesialan-kesialan gua waktu hujan turun. tapi gua juga seneng kalo banyak petirnya, gua bisa melihat petir dengan jelas dan gamblang di belakang rumah gua. indah. (uda kagak indah ceritanya kalo tu petir SKSD ma gua)
I think the end of the story must begin here...
see if tomorrow I could held another story for my life...
I really Love you, my lovely Blog...
Muach, muach, muach, muach.....muach.....

(*Kampret: Wueeeeeeekkk... hoeeeekk... cuih, bweeg......huoooooog.....)

$^%#@

I HATE CHEMISTRY!!!
gwaaaa................................ T.T
I really hate it....
hiks...hiks....
jahaaaaaaat............


um... aku denger kabar dari sesama LPU, katanya LP mo tour di Asia ea, ke Jakarta taon depan...
kalaupun jadi, bisa gag ea aku nonton.........
ugh... LP, u trapped me...
\m/
*LinkinParkUnderground*

PS (Pete Sambel): cerpen yang agak panjang gua uda ampir selese........yiha...

bentar, bentar,
w masi pengen curhad,
still so many words i've got to let it out.

blog...
jarang banget w update lg...
the reasons:
1. no idea
2. no time
3. no money
4. no...... nothing.... that's all....

well, banyak banget yang w alami akhir-akhir ini, yang makin gua berpikir lagi dengan arti hidup, rasa sayang, cinta, dsb...
thanks wat bang Aca yang uda menginspirasi, motivasi wa untu' update sebanyak ini lagi....

well, akhir-akhir ini juga, ntah napa sahabat-sahabat wa pada menjauh. jadi nyebelin smwa.
ga ada yang bisa dipercaya. Poor me...

lemeeeeeeeeees......................... tugas bejibun,,,,,
anjer.....

senen, kosong
selasa, ECC
Rebo, les matik
Kemis, kalo ga renang ya maen-maen di rumah
Jum'at, Pramuka, (tapi, ogah bangeud mw brankad)
Sebtu, les kimia
Minggu, les fisika...

wis apik ah....

oea. nyesel wa, baru ngedenger lagu-lagu'a Dead By Sunrise, padahal keren bangeud. abiz, dicari kemana-mana kagak ketemu-ketemu.
yang paling wa senengin ntu ea...
Crawl Back In
Inside Of Me
ntu yang Rock, hard-nya, nha yang alus,
Into You,
Walking In Circles,
Let Down, sumpah...
u Should Check It Out. bagi kau-kau pada yang ngakunya Rock mania.......
(Rock Mania??)

umm... kalo dipikir-pikir lagi, wa jadi lumayan aktif kalo ada presentasi-presentasi gitu, , nanya kesana kemari.
tapi juga banyakan tidurnye dikelas. uuugh... nikmat...

Apa Ini Hidup?

rasa sedikit surga dalam kesengsaraan
surga yang bagai neraka
nerakalah bagiku surga

menolong sahabat tanpa pamrih?
masih adakah?
semuanya mustahil sekarang.....

\m/

tugaz lom kelar-kelar.
jahad semue ente,,,
pala pucink uga, masi disuruh kerja, enag banget situ nyuruh-nyuruh doank, mentang-mentang yang punya kompie saya doank iye.... miskin loe pade... fuh,,,